“Beast”
Sometime in the evening
Is when it begins
Twisting, turning, underneath the skin
Holding out for something
So sick of it all
In the dark, I hide behind these walls
In the distance, I can hear you call
Inside, it’s waiting
Aching to be free
I know you’re trying to unleash… the beast in me
Tried to fight this feeling
Body and soul
Feels so good to finally lose control
Tried to stop this hunger
I wanted to run
Now I can’t believe what I have done
With the taste of you upon my tongue
Inside, it’s waiting
Aching to be free
I know that you have unleashed… the beast in me
My soul has drowned in what I’ve found within this bliss
I’m not the same and you’re to blame for this
I can’t resist
I can’t resist
I CAN’T RESIST!!!
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“Bloodlust”
I feel your body shaking
Is that your heart that’s breaking
I will make everything alright
I will not let them harm you
I don’t mean to alarm you
I’ll keep you warm in the coldest night
This is my promise I give to you…
Love
Trust
Blood
Lust
I need to tell you something
Without you, I am nothing
I swear you are the only one
This is my only warning
I won’t be there come morning
I must be gone before the sun
I can’t control it
I want to live…
Love
Trust
Blood
Lust
When your grip
starts slipping
Your soft flesh
starts dripping
I need you
to fill me
To lose you
would kill me
I think you know just why I’m here
Open your mind, let go of fear
I feel your heart beat faster
I am your god, your master
I own your soul forever more
To taste your life is splendid
My cracking skin has mended
So many things left to explore
I am inside you
Don’t be afraid…
Love
Trust
Blood
Lust
“The Spider Song”
Lights out, it’s time for slumber
That’s when the games begin
Crimson waves of fear
Escaping from the darkness
The shadows come to play
Feel them drawing near
Spiders crawling, Voices calling, Here to terrorize
Psyche breaking, Body shaking, Afraid to close my eyes
Screaming… Am I dreaming?
How can I escape my mind?
Lights out, it’s time for slumber
The games begin again
Sights I can’t unsee
The walls begin to shudder
The dead things come alive
Grabbing hold of me
Spiders crawling, Voices calling, Here to terrorize
Psyche breaking, Body shaking, Afraid to close my eyes
Screaming… Am I dreaming?
How can I escape my mind?
Voices in the dark… call my name
Tearing me apart… gone insane
Trapped between two worlds… the dark and light
Don’t think I’ll survive… through the…
… night when I beg to be set free
As the nightmare swallows me…
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“KA-BOOM”
Another night of jamming
Another night of beers and song
The bass making the walls shake
Scott’s got his General Lee shirt on
Reality is shredded
On my journey home
How could I know I’m headed…
Straight to… my doom…
KA-BOOM
The crunching sound of metal
The night explodes into a mess
Bone fractures from the impact
The pain erupting in my chest
Reality is shredded
On my journey home
How could I know I’m headed…
Straight to… my doom…
KA-BOOM
Despite my aching body
I’m still alive
It takes much more to break me
Never… assume…
I’ve met… my doom
Life will… resume…
KA-BOOM
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“Dark Before Dawn”
Watching as the sun falls from the sky
Trembling as its warmth slowly dies
Sunshine has turned to gray
I’ve thrown it all away
I fear this hazy night is here to stay…
Lost in the dark
Falling apart
Waiting so long
Dark before dawn
Darkness now consumes all that I see
Feeling it slowly wash over me
I never meant to be
this person that you see
Piece by piece, this night’s destroying me
Lost in the dark
Falling apart
Waiting so long
Dark before dawn
Waiting for the dawn to set me free
Blinded by her light, she comes to me
I’ve finally found my place
Within this warm embrace
The darkness in my soul has been erased
Lost in the dark
Falling apart
Waiting so long
Dark before dawn
“The Death of Me”
Held down and begging for mercy
Shackled like a slave
Dig a hole and bury my body
In this shallow grave
Made sure that no one can save me
From this slow decay
Pick away one piece at a time ‘til I
Start to fade away
Always seem to find a way to penetrate my mind
Think it’s gonna end, then you do it to me one more time
The beast behind your eyes.
The one that I despise.
It isn’t hard to see.
I know you’re going to be…
The death of me
I tried to find the good in you
Nothing there inside
I made an effort to please you
Don’t know why I tried
Always seem to find a way to penetrate my mind
Think it’s gonna end, then you do it to me one more time
The beast behind your eyes.
The one that I despise.
It isn’t hard to see.
I know you’re trying to be…
The death of me
Crucified, nowhere to hide
Body still alive, but the soul has died
Chipping away, one small piece at a time
Drag me down, into the ground
Cover me with lye so I won’t be found
Then walk away, and act like everything’s fine
The dam has burst, I am immersed
Through waves of rage, I’ll quench my thirst
I’m rising up, and you’re getting on your knees
Tied and bound, you watched me drown
To lift you up, you beat me down
I’ve found the cure, and you’re the fucking disease
Always seemed to find a way to penetrate my mind
Now it’s gonna end cuz you’ve done it for the very last time
The beast behind your eyes.
The one that I despise.
It isn’t hard to see.
You’re never going to be… the death of me
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“Apathy”
Never cared about pollution
It’s never meant a thing to me
Never cared about the homeless
What the hell have they done for me
Never cared about the hungry
Got my own fucking mouth to feed
Why care about their deprivation
When I got all that I need
There’s nothing I can do
That could help you through
I won’t even try
We all deserve to…
Dying ain’t so bad when there is nothing to cling to
No one cares for anything but what’s in their hands
Everybody’s sleeping so there’s no one to save you
It’s hard to find the answers when no one understands
Who cares about the scandals
Who cares about Vietnam
Why care about the future of mankind
When I’ll be dead and gone
Who cares about the widow’s heartache
Who cares about the children’s tears
And why should I care about Jesus Christ
When he’s been dead for years
There’s nothing I can say
That would make you stay
You’ll never see me cry
Cuz I deserve to…
Dying ain’t so bad when there is nothing to cling to
No one cares for anything but what’s in their hands
Everybody’s sleeping so there’s no one to save you
It’s hard to find the answers when no one understands
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“Falling Down”
This is my infection
This is what I deserve
I’m not sure when it all began
This is my confession
This is my darkest hour
I do this just because I can
Now I know I can’t go on
But I know I’m not the only one
And I’m flying way too far off the ground
Now the walls are closing in
And the pain is starting to begin
And I can feel myself begin to come down
Falling down
This is my direction
This is where I belong
I’ve dug this hole I’m falling in
This is my deception
I’m lying to myself
I’ve tried to keep it all within
Now I’m counting down the days
And I’m living in a darkened haze
And I smell the stench of death all around
Now my eyes are going blind
And the clouds are forming in my mind
And I feel myself begin to come down
Falling down
This is my obsession
This is all that I need
I’ve given up my self-control
This is my defection
I leave the world behind
I’m falling deeper in the hole
Well I used to have it all
Now I’m headed on an endless fall
And I’m reeling from this feeling I found
I really don’t know why
But I guess this is my last goodbye
Cuz I know I’m heading all the way down
Falling down
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“Taking Away Tomorrow”
Empty rooms and broken windows
Spiders on the wall
All alone, he watches as they crawl
When the darkness comes to haunt him
Nowhere left to hide
No way left to kill the pain inside
Swimming the sea of sorrow
Slipping away
Taking away tomorrow
Everybody has to pay
And it starts… now
Shadows of another lifetime
Echo in his mind
Memories that fade away in time
Tiny monsters deep within him
Bursting from his soul
Trembling hands that move without control
Swimming the sea of sorrow
Slipping away
Taking away tomorrow
Everybody has to pay
And it starts… NOW
As he reaches for his gun
He knows it’s wrong
But now that it is done
The pain is gone
Swimming the sea of sorrow
Slipping away
Taking away tomorrow
Everybody has to pay
And it starts…
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“Wake Me When It’s Over”
Open up my head and stick your venom in my brain
You’re going to do it anyway, so why should I complain
Feed me with your poison ’til I’m just about to burst
With avery passing moment, everything’s just getting worse
Blindly led, we’re all the losers now
Always needed someone to show us how
Finding it all so very strange
That every four years, we rearrange
When we know that’s nothing’s ever going to change
Standing knee-deep in confusion
Waiting for the real solution
Am I the only one who’s sober
Wake me when the whole thing’s over
I’m starting to get nauseous from the stink that’s in the air
I really find it funny that someone would think you care
You say you have the answers that could heal this open gash
Why don’t you take those answers and just shove them up your ass
Tell us all what we really want to hear
Tell us our salvation’s growing near
Finding it all so very strange
That every four years, we rearrange
When we know that’s nothing’s ever going to change
Standing knee-deep in confusion
Waiting for the real solution
Am I the only one who’s sober
Wake me when the whole thing’s over
Cover me with blood and then just feed me to the dogs
Rape me while you pray to your imaginary god
Suck the very life out of this cold and empty shell
Tell us we’re in Heaven when we live in fucking Hell
Build your little world and wear your crown
Who will be the one to tear it down
Finding it all so very strange
That every four years, we rearrange
When we know that’s nothing’s ever going to change
Standing knee-deep in confusion
Waiting for the real solution
Am I the only one who’s sober
Wake me when the whole thing’s over
Promises of reconstruction
When all we get is self-destruction
Searching for the four leaf clover
Wake me when the whole thing’s over
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“Exquisite Tenderness”
I’m reaching for something else
I’m waiting for something else to show
I’m needing a change of pace
I’m wanting another place to go
Nothing is quite as it seems
Breaking away before my dreams…
…start to fade
These walls are so dull and gray
I’m slipping so far away from you
Too tired to close my eyes
I’m starting to realize it’s true
Falling apart at the seams
We’ve got to live before our dreams…
…start to fade
Trying to live without you
Trying to breathe without you
Trying to go without the only thing that ever made me whole
Don’t let the fire take me
Don’t let the demons break me
Don’t try to take away the only thing that ever filled my soul
So tender, I’m open wide
So empty, I have no pride to lose
I’m reaching for something else
I’m waiting for something else to choose
Deep in myself, wrapped up tight
Trying to live before the light…
…starts to fade
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“Sore”
I’ve broken my back for nothing
I know I’m going nowhere fast
I wanna be known for something
I don’t wanna be the one who comes in last
I don’t wanna live forever
Razor on skin
I wouldn’t know where to begin
I don’t wanna stay forever
Show me the door
I just don’t like it here no more
But I am just too sore
I’ve done this all for nothing
I’m sliding down the same old hill
I wanna be known for something
But I know it’s a fact I never will
I don’t wanna stay forever
Show me the door
I just don’t like it here no more
But I am just too sore
I’d swim across the ocean
I’d crawl across the land
I’d walk a thousand miles
But I’m too weak to stand
The rats are in the kitchen
The wolves are in the hall
The killer’s in the bedroom
The writing’s on the wall
It’s all too far away x 4
IT’S ALL TOO FAR AWAY! x4
I don’t want to stay forever
Locked in this cage
The hope I had has turned to rage
I don’t wanna stay forever
Show me the door
I just don’t like it here no more…
But I am just too sore
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“Blasphemy”
I am the one who makes you cry
I am the needle in your eye
I am the one you cannot see
Yet I’m the one you want to be
I can make you high
I can take away your will
I can make you die
I have caused your blood to spill
I could ease your pain
But you’re just a stain
I don’t need to hear
The worthless words
Of all the things you’re telling me
I make my home
Inside your mind
I feed you lies
To make you blind
You are my pet
A worthless dog
I rule your world
Cuz I AM GOD
I like it when you’re on your knees
I know you try so hard to please
I take away all that you love
I’m laughing at you from above
You must bow to me
You must do just as I say
In this filthy world
All you little pigs must pay
Empty dreams I sell
Blatant lies I tell
All the weak must pay
Your faith is blind
And I’m the one misleading you
I make my home
Inside your mind
I feed you lies
To make you blind
You are my pet
A worthless dog
I rule your world
Cuz I AM GOD
You cling to me
You are not free
This is my world
too good to be
High on the wall
Your dreams must fall
Why can’t you see
I hate you all
You have created me from fear
That is the reason why I’m here
Does this bother you
Does this anger you
Does it hurt to know
The one you love…
…really doesn’t care for you
I make my home
Inside your mind
I feed you lies
To make you blind
You are my pet
A worthless dog
I rule your world
Cuz I AM GOD
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“Scar”
Crack me open
Shell me like an egg
Naked, frightened
Wishing I was dead
Anger, hatred
Things I can’t destroy
Here I’m standing
Still a fuckin’ boy
I’m tried to keep these feelings way down deep inside
They always seem to find me when I try to hide
I’ve put the past behind me, why is it so hard
Why do I feel like I’ve been scarred…
… on the inside
Cut me deeper
Wash your hands in blood
Leave my body buried
In the mud
Living, breathing
So hard to pretend
How long ’til I…
Fuck it up again
I’m tried to keep these feelings way down deep inside
They always seem to find me when I try to hide
I’ve put the past behind me, why is it so hard
Why do I feel like I’ve been scarred…
… on the inside
Such desperation
Wrapped in frustration
Trying to keep the darkness from bleeding through
May be surprising
But I’m realizing
It’s unfair to try to put the blame on you
I’ve held on tightly
To the hurt inside me
You planted the seed, but I let it grow
As life gets longer
And I’ve grown stronger
I’m thinking I can finally let it go
I’m tried to keep these feelings way down deep inside
They always seem to find me when I try to hide
I’ve put the past behind me, why is it so hard
Why do I feel like I’ve been scarred…
On the inside x 4
ON THE INSIDE! x 4
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